Kevin

...And all the Little Devils Went Ice-Skating
(Summer 1999)
It's so strange to say
"I have a boyfriend"
Who would have ever thought?
I gave up on boys years ago
And became a single kind of girl
"Happiness is being single"
A wise friend once told me:
"There's a difference between being single...
and being alone."
And I definitely wasn't alone
I was proud to be a player
Not a typical feminine attitude
But I found no flaw with being single
Then I met a guy
Who turned my world upside-down
Before I even realized it
I suddenly desired
All I had been running from
I found something better
Than being single
Although I still don't feel like in the past
I missed anything by not having a boyfriend
I don't feel like now
I'm missing anything by having one


Breaking my Own Heart
(November 1999)
I ripped my heart out
Out of your hands
And set it dripping on the counter
My mind told me,
Is still telling me,
It was the right thing to do
But now it's all I can think about
And I keep crying inside
(Sometimes on the outside too)
They say pain lessens with time
But mine only grows
Each day is harder to face
And each night
Harder to sleep through
When I did it
A weight dropped from my shoulders
But now it's gone to my heart
And it holds it down
And fills me up
Till I overflow
Through my eyes
And down my cheeks
Onto my pillow
Tears filling up the space
Which should be taken up
By sleep
Which continues to elude me