Sorry

I tried not to be needy
I tried not to come on too strong
Instead I fucked up a different way
It hasn't even been a day
Since you disappeared from my phone
Now work is really no fun
Without your continuous texts
I didn't know where they were leading
Or what you thought about me
Or even IF you were thinking of me
But this time that didn't bother me
The more we texted - the more I smiled
And looked forward to your next witty remark
You are smart, funny, feisty, and beautiful
Amazingly - you never bore me
I miss your random questions
I miss how you say "orly"
When I proposition you via text
Maybe there's a lot of you I don't know
And a lot you don't know about me
But I was really enjoying the process
Of getting to know you better
I had no expectations
Just a growing crush
Yet now I feel flat
So I guess in the end you were right
You did manage to squish me

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if I ever put pressure on you
I'm sorry if my problems were too much for you
I'm sorry that I facebook stalk you
I'm sorry that I needed a friend so badly
I'm sorry that you called me in the middle of the night
I'm sorry I interpreted that to mean you needed me
I'm sorry I misunderstood your smiles
I'm sorry that you used to make me smile
I'm sorry that now you make me cry
I'm sorry I loved you so much
I'm sorry that I hate you for it
I'm sorry that I jumped first and didn't look
I'm sorry I let myself fall for you, again
I'm sorry you still didn't catch me
I'm sorry it's the wrong time for us both
I'm sorry that my crush got in the way
I'm sorry I see you as beautiful
I'm sorry I find you smart and funny too
I'm sorry that I keep wondering "what if?"
I'm sorry that I already miss you
Most of all - I'm sorry to say goodbye