Addicted to You

Addicted to You
(March 2011)
Today I feel off the wagon
And into your embrace
Yesterday I thought it through
And I promised myself
It was over
You’re no good for me
I told you goodbye
I knew it was really over this time
I changed my facebook status
Back to single
I deleted all of your texts
And removed your number from my phone
I felt strong
I knew this was for the best
Then today I got a text
Even without your name
I recognized the number was yours
It was a short text, just three words
“Are you okay?”
My heart sped up
You are worried about me
That’s a good sign – you care!
The phone is vibrating in my hands
No, wait –
It is my hands that are shaking the phone
My head says, “Delete”
But my fingers are already replying
“I miss you”
Send.
Shit! You are calling
I hear your voice on the phone
I know you love me too
I am flying… floating
I convince myself I was wrong
We’re not doomed – we’re perfect
It was all just a mistake
We are together again
A happy couple
We talk for hours
I can’t bear to hang up
I don’t want this buzz to end
You are my drug
And today:
I fell off the wagon.