Make Me

Make Me
(June 2017)

Touch me
Grab me
Hold me
Make me stay

Notice me
Want me
Love me
Make me care

Hug me
Kiss me
Fuck me
Make me scream

Ignore me
Forget me
Leave me
Make me cry

Jenna

Jenna
(2011)
I'm writing this for you
Because smiles - you could use a few
I know there's a lot going on
Hang in there - stay strong
Crystal is your ex
You used to have sex
Sorry to say - she's a whore
It's time to close that door
Focus on your close friends
Don't let those be the ends
You work in a bingo hall
Not just old folk - ages of all
New York is where you're from
I lived there too - but Cali is my home
We've talked for over four years
It works nicely - since we're both queers
You used to be my almost
But no we're friends - let's toast!
Having exes does really suck
Bitches we used to fuck
Be happy we have each other
Yay! - Friends forever

Clarity

Clarity
(2011)
I seek clarity
But the more I think
The more muddled everything becomes
I analyze love
I ask why
Then I wonder how I ever know
How do I know anything to be truth
Can I even believe my own feelings
Maybe they are just exaggerating
Some version of like
The more I think
The heavier the fog becomes
And still
-I seek clarity

The New (old) Me

The New (old) Me
(early 2011)
Her love was like a dream
But I forgot to wake up
For three years I slept
The silence pounding in my head
I cover my ears and scream
I laugh
I cry
I dance
Anything to drown out the silence
I yawn
I stretch
I am ready to take on the world
I have no regrets
Everything I have ever done
Has brought me to today
The day that I will stop procrastinating
Being happy

Naked

Naked
(Early 2013)
I still love you
With all my heart
Without you I feel naked
Lost,
I miss what we once were
I miss what we could have been
What I don't miss
Is where we ended up
Somehow
What once gave me life, hope
Was hurting me
Killing me
Now the cold air hits my skin
I am terrified, naked
I still love you
I thought you were my destination
But it turns out you were
A part of my journey
I will always remember
Niagra Falls
Casa Loma
You, us
I still love you
Without you I feel naked

Two worlds

Two Worlds
Torn between two worlds
Two realities
Two boys
One holds the past
All the pain but also all the joy
The other holds me now
When I look at him I see the future
I see all the possibilities
How happy we could be
And also, the pain he could cause me
Caught between two worlds
Two realities
Two boys
And I just don't know
Where to go